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It’s that time again.

The slump.  I make changes, put lots of effort into dieting and exercising, lose a few pounds.  And then it happens.  The Slump.  You miss a day of working out, you give in to a craving.  And then you feel like you’re heading back down to the “normal” track, where you always end up.

I admit, I am feeling.  It’s been a month since I have started diet and exercising.  I’ve lost around 8 pounds total, 5 from before I started on here and the 3 I lost last week.  This is when I usually slow it down.  And I have.  I don’t calling it giving up this time, because I’m not.  I’m just trying to beat this period that comes to me.  I’m not pushing myself enough this week, not putting forth all the effort I need.  I worked out today, did 30 mins of cardio bike intervals (the eliptical in my apartment complex is broken, our whole “gym” is crap, anyways…) and I feel good about.  I really pushed back when it started beating me.  BUT asa whole, I’m not satisfied with myself.

I also deviated from my diet.  I gave in to the graduation cake in my back room.  Now, instead of having an entire piece, I had 2 bites.  My GOODNESS did it taste good!  I was also at a BBQ on Monday and they ran out of bottled water by the time I got there and all there was was soda, so I had a half of one.   :-(  This is how is starts!  And let me tell you…how badly I am craving something!  Ice cream, brownie, cupcake anything!  It’s getting hard!  I need a reward, but for what?  For not working out as much, for cheating?  HA!

I have always struggled with lack of motivation, even though, in theory, I have lots of it… but it doesn’t push me to work out.  I read on here about how some girls are obsessed with running/jogging.  How they love the high.  What the heck?  Where can I get some of that? I’m still waiting for the moment where I have gotten my body used to working out enough where I want to do it routinely.

The pounds aren’t going to come off by themselves

Well, today I had my second weigh in.  I wasn’t expecting much.  I worked out about as much as I did last week, not adding more as I wanted to.  I did pretty good eating wise, but I indulged in the terryaki burgers my husband made, and enjoyed some chips and dip!  I love dip… anyways, so when I stepped on this morning and saw that I had maintained my previous weight loss, I was pretty proud of myself.  Obviously I wish I had lost some, but it’s not always going to be that way.  It’s good motivation to kick it into gear this week!  I have several days where I can go meet my best friend at the gym!!!  I like being next to her, it makes it a little easier!

I worked out on Saturday morning!  I got out of bed and told myself, you need to make up for this week.  So I did!  It about killed me, but I did my normal 30 mins cardio.  I actually felt good when I got home, not tired like I thought.  It’s been a tough last few days, because I started my period Friday, and I am such a choco-holic (or used to be, yay!) so I’ve had lots of cravings, but they ahve been easier to beat… Good progress.

Keep up the good work, buddies.

Hooray!  3 lbs down in 11 days!  I am so excited, and seeing even a small result of my hard work and changed habits is a lot of motivation to keep it going.  I did pretty well over the weekend!  I made homemade popsicles, (or paletas) from fresh fruit and a little honey to sweeten them.  They are delicious!  They definite helped my cravings!

I didn’t work out as much as I have wanted the past few days, but it is a new week and I am ready to amp it up!  I did stay as active as I could for working all weekend.  I did a lot of running around and lifting and moving heavy things at work :-)  It is supposed to be beautiful for a few days here, so after I work out with Heather, I am going to take walks around my neighborhood.  I’m excited

Keep up the good work buddies!

So, yeah, today was tough, as far as food cravings went.  But I didn’t cheat!  I did it!  While at Kroger today, I checked out Frozen Yogurt vs. Ice Cream.  Its a load of difference for sure.  I still weary of it though… I wonder how it tastes…chocolate frozen yogurt?  I picked up a flavor called “Berry Smoothie”, which in my mind may taste better as yogurt?  Haven’t had any yet… maybe I’ll share a small bowl with Hubs tonight.

I felt really good about my exercise today, I doubled my eliptical time and did the intervals like Heather does.  It kicked my butt, but I felt good.   I was going to do weekly weigh ins, and tomorrow would be it, but I haven’t really lost anything.  1.5 pounds.  :-(  I think I am going to do them on Mondays.  Heather had a good point… it gives really good motivation not to cheat on the weekends.  I’m not gonna wanna blow it right before I see how much I lost during the week! Currently though, for the past few weekends, that’s when I induldge.  At my parents’ Derby party, I had a piece of cake, and on Mother’s Day, I had a bowl of vanilla ice cream with strawberries on top.  I don’t feel bad about it, but maybe the Monday weigh in will help!

So today is weirdly hard for me.  I am seriously craving chocolate.  I wanted a chocolate filled donut from Dunkin this morning.  (Thankfully, no Dunkin’ in the Boro, so it’s not like I could just run up there).  I settled for my yogurt burst cheerios, which are really good!

I just feel lazy today.  I don’t really want to do anything.  It’s my day off!  And I am working a 6-day stretch after this.  I just want to hang around the house, do some cleaning, some reading, some scrapbooking…  Ugh… When I’m at work it’s not so bad because I am on my feet all day, only sitting for a short time on my break while I eat.  Today I am just looking for it… looking for the sweet stuff.  I am struggling with substitutes.  Any suggestions?  Keep in mine my killer sweet tooth!!!

It’s hard for me to get up and going on my days off unless I have something planned.  I just want to relax and chill.  Once I get going, I guess it’s not so bad.  I need to run to the grocery today, and I’m going to work out with BFF and then tan.  I really just want to stay home!  And eat something I shouldn’t…but so far, so good.

This is my first blog, about Day 6 on Buddyslim, though I haven’t been on here much.

On April 24, I finally broke down.  I just couldn’t hold it in anymore.  How could I have possibly let myself get like this?  It happened pretty easily, I would say!  I had a million thoughts running through my head.  We had just pulled our new scale out of the box a few days ago.  I stepped on it and couldn’t believe my eyes.  Actually, it was very believable, I just didn’t want to admit it.  Way over my “redline” weight.  168.  I started bawling.  Weight isn’t everything, but it’s been a huge factor in my mood lately, because I am so down about myself.  I went from 108 on the day of my high school graduation 6 years ago, to 125 a year after that, and from there it has been escalating.  I even lost a few pounds around my wedding this past March, but that is all back now.

I walked into the kitchen and tore through the cupboards and freezer.  I threw away the remaing of the diminishing junk food.  I dumped everything that tempted me daily, including ice cream - those who know me, know that that is my true weakness.  It was a sad night.  I was home alone as usual, (husband works nights) so I just sat on the couch wallowing in that self pity that we all have for ourselves.

Since then, I have really cut back the amount of sugar intake I have.  I really think I have a sugar addiction, lol.  I have cravings and get shaky, but I know in the end it will all be okay.   I know that what I need is to exercise a whole lot more, that is defintely the weak link in my chain right now.  Its hard for me to stay motivated, as it always has been.  I will give myself a pat on the back though, because I have fought the temptation several times in the past two weeks.  I have substituted my usual ice cream, chocolate, cookies with garnolabars and popcorn.  It seems to be working for now…

It’s just so hard… This week has been pretty good.  I worked out with my best friend on Monday, did 10 mins on the eliptical and 25 on the bike.  Not horrible for someone who hasn’t worked out since mid March.  I have walked/jogged a few times, but that’s all.  I’m meeting her tomorrow to!  It’s easier doing it when someone else is.